As stated in my first post and you could have guessed from my blog's name, I have polycystic ovarian syndrome also known as PCOS. I was diagnosed in February of 2015 and diagnosed again in July 2017. I had two sonograms and a blood test to confirm my PCOS. It has not been an easy journey at all but I have no choice but to continue it. What is PCOS? A hormonal imbalance that is ruining my life every single day and will continue to ruin my life until the day I die. All of my doctors encourage me to change my attitude to my PCOS but it is honestly more exhausting to pretend to be positive than it is to actually feel actual feelings. I have PCOS so I am allowed to be angry that I have irregular periods and when I do get a period, it is 30 days long. I am allowed to be sad that when I hear my friends talk about their future kid's names knowing that I may not be able to relate without thousands of dollars and so much work. I am also allowed to be depressed because I have no control over my body, I feel like less than a woman, and I hate PCOS! I learn more and more about what I have everyday like it is why I struggle to lose weight due to extra insulin, why I had black spots on my face, and why my hair was falling out at one point in time. This is the syndrome I have to deal with until the day I die. Speaking of my death, PCOS may just be the cause. While uncommon, it is possible for polycystic ovarian syndrome to be fatal. PCOS has been linked to heart disease and that is super deadly but I am supposed to be positive right? Unfortunately yes. Like I said earlier, I am allowed to feel some type of way when it comes to what I have but I need to get out my feelings. Tia Mowry-Hardrict has endometriosis which is similar to PCOS said, “It [endomitriosis] is not a life sentence.” PCOS is not a life sentence. It is a life journey instead. I will be taking this journey until the day I die and I can help myself. I plan on becoming vegetarian (after the holidays) and I hope to become vegan after that. I plan on curing myself and not letting PCOS completely ruin my life in 2018. I can get my period together, I can lose weight by changing my diet, and I can gain control of my body. You can check out my poem about PCOS here! >>>>>
http://www.powerpoetry.org/poems/polycystic-ovarian-syndrome
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